Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Ruins...


She told him she’s leaving. He kissed her goodbye and asked her to be careful.
She walked away… he called out to her for one last glance… She looked at him, her eyes glistening with tears… And just then, in the flash of a lightening, they came back to her… all the dreams they had woven together… All the times of laughter… all the times of love and beauty… the castle they built together… he saw only the ruins! She wanted to stop and wait longer in her world of love and laughter, her fantasies, her happiness, Couldn’t see that there were just ruins now! Her beautiful dream had broken, the hope dead! There’s no peace for her.. Nothing to put her heart to rest…Cold, and Closed she turns her back to her world…

You aren’t here even when you are here…
I am gently drifting away…

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

The Kiss..!!


What does a kiss mean to you? Ever tried interpreting kisses? I am going to do that fatal thing right here!

Lets start from the beginning, the first kiss always remains the first kiss and even if you probably hate the person now, you know that you would never be able to forget him and that moment you shared with him. The first time you felt touched. The first time you felt someone got to know you, probably the first time you actually came to know yourself and your needs.

Then there is this kiss that comes with sympathy. She kisses him cuz he is a great person and he is madly in love with her. She doesn’t love him but can’t afford to break his heart (She hasn’t learnt the trick yet!) That kiss would always make you feel good cuz of the glint you get to see in the guy’s eyes after the kiss.. It is a wonderful feeling!

There are crushes and infatuations in everyone’s life. When you actually kiss the person you are infatuated with, you feel you have achieved what you had set out to do. Its more of a victory. The feeling is great but the value of the kiss falls everytime after the first moment!

The completely hot n wet kiss! If you haven’t experienced this then you have seriously lost out on something in your life! There are times when there is no love and no affection or even emotional bonding. Just Attraction! Plain attraction and there is a situation which is perfect! That’s when you realize that you have this undying desire of kissing this someone and you make it a point to give way to all the pent up energy in you, revealing the lust in you! It sure is exhilarating!

Finally there comes the kiss with someone you truly believe you love. You may want to believe that you aren’t a good kisser or he isn’t but you both know that this kiss is the most beautiful! Not because this is the wettest or the one where you win but because this is the one where you surrender and there is so much joy in giving yourself completely to this one person you want to trust. It’s the most beautiful feeling. Its like you have just touched an angel just had your first contact with something divine. God’s come down to you and told you that you are being loved and looked after…

Each has its own pleasure if you can make your relationship last forever, each kiss will be the best. Each leaving you with different emotions… Love, Lust, Thrill, Affection, Security, Reassurance…

Saturday, November 1, 2008

My Life's Melodies...


I always have a song on my mind.. n like always..!! There’s good to it.. I like humming it over n over again.. a happy day gives me a happy song n so does a angry frustrating day… the problem comes when I associate songs with people… n believe me I do it! I actually have songs for people… songs that remind me of moments with them.. random moments… precious moments... moments of laughter...moments of pain...even moments of anger! Today I sit and think that I am probably not doing justice to my music. People come n go and in my life this happens very often (Don’t start blaming me for it now!) So when people walk away so do their songs.. Somehow I can never listen to those songs again, they always remind me of those moments and that causes so much pain that I’d rather not listen to the song… My I tunes playlist is like my life playing… With each song there’s a different chapter of my life unfolding…Chapters I have sometimes felt like erasing! You delete the song, block the person away.. But what do you do with memories? What do you do with this heart that still wants to hum the same song over n over again… Won’t people ever understand, by leaving me alone they take my melodies away… they take pieces of my life away…